Lists

December 6, 2009

things i am going to do on christmas break

1. work.

2. work.

3. work some more.

4. drink exorbitant amounts of tea and coffee.

5. watch a lot of the history channel and fox news and csi miami,

 until i get dizzy and all the blood drains from my head when i stand up.

6. play in the snow.

7. sit at panache to read for fun instead of homework.

8. sleeeeeeeep.

9. spend more time with Jesus that is not related to homework.

10. make ginger snaps.

11. play at the cafe with on the moon without a paddle.

12. find something exciting to do on new years eve.

13. work. :)

14. have office/cookie dough nights with jordan.

15. go to old chicago with zack.

16. get ahead on new testament for spring semester.

17. go running.

18. get a hold of a road bike.

19. go to my old community college and get one of their lattes.

20. go roller skating at peoria palace.

what i am doing right now

1. procrastinating reading ezekiel.

the end.

The Start

May 19, 2010

wow. it's been a while.

i don't even think i'm the same person i was when i posted last!

so much has happened to me

and so much about who i am has changed.

i have so much going on in my head and heart

so much of the time now that it's hard to sort through.

and nothing bad, really.

it's all mostly good stuff!

just life stuff that i'm learning and living through.

such as wanting to go get certified in breastfeeding counseling,

childbirth education,

and being a doula.

such as being a mom of two beautiful children

and what that means - to them and me.

such as learning what the lord wants of me as a wife,

mom,

daughter,

friend.

learning how to live without some people

and how to accept new ones.

i think about writing a lot

but never have the time.

or when i do have the time, i get a brain block

and can't think of where to start!

but i guess this is a start!

Practicalities

August 9, 2010

I'm sure most of you have read my post at Tea With Ren,

about the fact that Bleu and I are in the process of separating our lives.

There's so much to say,

so much I want to write about,

yet when things get difficult

I tend to stop writing as much...

Change is a constant in this life.

I've learned to embrace most of it,

to be with it and know that

what it leads to will be cloaked for some time.

There are great things around the next corner....

I suppose it's that feeling of excitement

and mystery

that make me want to keep doing more in this life.

For now,

packing and remembering the past are enough.

Long Beach and the Queen Mary are on the bucket list!

Practicalities should never get in the way of a dream. :)

Rewarding

November 18, 2010

Saw this on a friend's page.

Let's take a break from being fabulous designers

and do this just for fun.

It's a contest to design the worst logo ever.

Click on the 'Logo Gallery' to see some of the submissions.

They are hilarious.

Lot's of comic sans.

There is a reward.

The End

June 18, 2010

I've been putting off writing about the end,

not just the end of the PCT,

but the end of the blog.

The end of anything isn't as fun as the beginning.

In fact, the beginning is the most fun of all.

The possibilities,

the potential,

the unknown...

As for the blog.

I have simply run out of things to say.

Originally this was a place to communicate with all of you,

as well as put in a permanent place a record of events

which were adventures for me.

While grad school will be an adventure,

I'm going to use up all my words writing papers,

debating classmates (you know I will!)

and talking with all of you in person,

on the phone

or in emails!

I may still occasionally post photos or write something,

but I don't know what the future of this space will be.

So I want to say thank you now to everyone who has been a part of it.

Whether you stopped by once

(in which case you probably aren't reading this),

or have checked in regularly, thank you.

See you around the bend...

Next Blog

There's a button, at the top of my blogger window that says, "Next Blog". I started clicking it one day and quickly became fascinated by how many blogs were dead - but still alive, still there. A brain dead organism in the middle of a really crowded space. I then discovered that these ghost blogs fall into one of two categories.


One group made a conscious choice to walk away and announced it with some sort of explanation.

November 16, 2009

there are certain people who judge me

as a mother by what I do

(and do not)

write,

so I will no longer be posting on this blog,

thank you very much.

The other group seemingly vanished overnight. One day they're talking about an upcoming trip, just the sort of thing they would cover on their blog replete with pictures of tan and healthy people jumping from airplanes and sailing the South Pacific, and then nothing. Not one word for months, years.

June 12, 2010

I had a conversation with Marion.

She was mean.

But I told her she was better than that.

They are all accidental poetry. And a little bit of mystery. I suppose the mysteries might be solved by reading backward on their blog, but I don't plan on doing that. I don't really feel like it's my business. And there's my conundrum.

I want to share these last entries with other people. I want to blog about these ghost blogs. But I am not sure if it's right to do so. They are still out there in the public domain, and this definitely falls under fair use, so I don't think there is anything legally wrong with it, but morally...these people are done blogging. Is it fair to dredge up their old stuff?

What if someone dredged up my old blog? Is it even still out there? I have very faint memories of the thing - I think it was mostly pictures of my cats. Come to think of it, there are few things more embarrassing than having a blog about your cats.


I have decided that, if I start this blog, I won't link to the dead blogs. I think I have decided that. Sigh. This is all pretty moot considering I will probably be the sole audience for this blog. But maybe, one day, after this blog dies, someone will resurrect a part of it and it will become famous blog-post-humously.


Until then:

November 4, 2010

here's a post specially dedicated to you.

a straightforward declaration of anger
would have been sufficient,
thank you.

it definitely hurts less than your judging.

and don't try to sugarcoat it up.
that just makes it equivalent to you smiling sweetly

while shoving a knife into my gut.